Thru Christ who strengthen me...

2008-03-24T23:53:00.002+08:00

Heee..
so long didn't blog le.
but seeing so many pple blog.
will try but promise...

went out with my pri sch mate after test last week
really like tai tai life meh...

after my paper, i went b/f with my classmate and afterall spend a few hour doin my yearly reflection which is due long..
hav a great time recallin God's blessin and also reading of the book that reminded me of God's great love for me.

no doubt that even though didn't go shoppin which i would, i really hav a good time at mac together with God.

Thank For that though been busy and no time, but he hav been so faithful...
You are so Great and Good!

2007-11-13T21:42:00.000+08:00

feeling jus bored and lazy.
wanna to hange the outlook of blog
but jst laxy to do so
bored
feelin a sense of
how to explain
like something missin.
bored

Long time

2007-03-29T21:20:00.000+08:00

Long time..

It's been a long time since i update my blog.

somehow i just feel lost these few mths.

lost of the future for these mths.

and lost into the show that i keep watching.

today missy not at home.
so me went into the thinking mood again.

reflecting what will happened and wat might happened.

thinking too much ? mayb.

me going to studying soon.

yup.
tat is one thing that i have finally concluded.

and the course?

some sort have more or less decided.

but am thinking, it is just me that i want to study or wat?

can i doing the rite thing?

will it be pleasing to God?

I pray that even now, as i have some sort of have a rought idea, if really that's not wat God want, He will show me thru his way..

as for now, me am choose which sch and when to start.

will be a new big step for me cos it will affect my future which i really have no idea of what is ahead.

but though i am scared, i pray that God will just give to the rite amt of faith to trust Him each day to bring me thru the challenges in life and bring me slowly into the path He want me to go.

God bring me along with you, i pray.. =o)

me

2007-03-15T17:46:00.000+08:00

- me-
http://friends.imagini.net/vdna.php?responseUID=90340-a982&srv=iwebhd5

missing

2007-02-12T23:19:00.000+08:00

feeling lost and confused.

yesterday finally have a chat with Lena after such a long time.

those who don't know her, she my youth peer from ywav who left for studies abt 6.5 yr already.
miss her caringness and also her accompany.
though we don't go out at all, she always so busy, yet there is just this chemistry in us that make me feel so close to her...

these yr have been a reflective yr and thinking so much abt my future.

so of my friends say that mayb i am thinking and reading into it too much.

but really and truely, i really don't know what is ahead of my future.

God , help me to trust you ...

mayb cos i am a worrying type and need thing to be under control....

am thinking what can i do ?
should i stay and remain or should i move on.

God give me the wisdom to know what to act ..

future

2006-12-25T10:46:00.000+08:00

Christmas

So fast.
Christmas season again.
that's mean that ne year is just a week's time.

This yr time flies so fast.

sometime, am so occuppy with so many thing, be it watching show, meeting friends, online or even just slacking, didn't really have a time of stopping by and thinking thru thing...

recently went crazy with a show. those who recently talk to me will know wat is the title... =o)
this christmas guess is slightly a bit diff.
going to spend with my 3 another 1/4's.. that make 4 of us 1...

yesterday was baptism service again.
another yr passed.
this yr, i have been baptised for 4 yr and being a christian for coming 12 yr.
so fast is a dozen.

time just flies...
coming to wat i have done?
hmm, guess this yr started with a very good yr, yet God is very good to me.

now, thing look fine, looking forward for next yr.

meet up with my another friend yesterday.
was talking and chatting, was a first time we chat so much since i know her in jc.

wk ago, meet up with another jrmate.
so fast, it been 9 yr we know one another without our realization.
time flies without any notice.

Time to tink what to do for future. it seem it is not very far though....

Today devot

2006-12-12T11:00:00.000+08:00

Today Devo.

" If you're willing to die for you family, be willing to love for them too."

this sentence make me think.
it really take more courage to live on and face so many difficulties and hardship and trails in life.

To die, you just have to think of a way how to, location where to and time when to.
and the rest of the rest is the end?

guess not.
as least to us.
the story just lead to another stage. meeting God eariler.

but in living, it is the people, the task that make us down, make me worry.
yet the writer say.
be willing to live for them

ya. living is definately sometime more difficlt than dying.
But when thinking and writing now.
the only thing and the only comfort is that during this and that.
at least i have someone that i can complain to.
someone that i can write to...

guess living is not so hard that cannot bear.
guess living for my loved one and myself and also for Him, the only comfort is not that bad enough drive me to death.

when thing hit hard, at most complain, at most worry, at most anxious.
but definately not death...

Good Things Versus God-Things

2006-11-24T23:41:00.000+08:00

Good Things Versus God-Things
by Os Hillman, November 23, 2006

Because those who are led by the Spirit of God are sons of God. - Romans 8:14

The greatest sign that you and I are maturing in our walk with God is when we can discern the difference between "good things" and "God-things." When the people of Israel journeyed out of Egypt through the desert, the cloud led them by day. They could move only as fast as the cloud. If they went ahead, they went without God's presence. If they lagged behind, they also lost God's presence.

Each of us must have the discernment to know when God is leading in a matter, or if it is simply a good idea. There are so many things in which you and I can be involved, and the more successful you become, the greater the temptations to enter into things where God has not called you. Entrepreneurs are especially prone to see all the opportunities.

I recall one time when I entered into a project that I thought was a great idea. It would help many people. After two years, the project had to be discontinued. It was a great lesson on understanding what projects have God's blessing on them. There are some projects you and I might get involved in that result in little fruit compared to the investment put into them. That is because they may never have been birthed by the Holy Spirit.

As sons of God, we are called to be led by the Spirit. This requires a level of dependence on God in which many of us really do not want to invest. It requires listening, waiting, and moving only when God's Spirit tells us to move. Workplace believers are "action" people. We know how to get things done, but our greatest strength can be our greatest weakness.

Today, ask God to make you a Romans 8:14 man or woman who is led by the Spirit of God. Pray against lagging behind or moving ahead. Ask God to reveal whether the next project you consider is a "good thing" or a "God-thing."

Penguin having blister

2006-11-17T09:31:00.000+08:00

Penguin having blister?

Have you heard that penguin having blister?
it's true and it's cute!

Look at this!

Don't you like the shoe it wearing?
so nice!!

http://news.nationalgeographic.com/news/2006/11/061115-penguin-shoes.html

God is faithful. Yes he is...

2006-11-03T23:52:00.000+08:00

God is faithful. Yes he is...

You Are So Faithful

Like the sun that rises every day,

You are so faithful, Lord You are faithful.

Like the rain that You send,

And every breath that I breathe,

You are so faithful, Lord.

Like the rose that comes alive every spring,

You are so faithful, Lord You are faithful.

Like the life that You give,

To every beat of my heart,

You are so faithful, Lord.

I see the cross and the price You had to pay,

I see the blood that washed my sins away.

And in the midst of a storm,

Through the winds and the waves,

You’ll still be faithful, You’ll still be faithful,

When the stars refuse to shine and time is no more,

You’ll still be faithful, You’ll still be faithful, Lord.

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today attended my cf WOW service..

saw lot of my peer, the excfers of rest of poly..

everyone have indeed grow and change.

=o) all of us indeed miss the days in CF..

those were the days.

yes..

those were the days that we sit in CF room, tlaking, singing prayer, having meeting and catching up...

on wed, jas, sookyee and me organise a gathering for the pcfers grad. only 10 of us turn up. eve, kunliang, sy, me, jas, suz, fuji, josh...

was a interesting time together...

today indeed God is still very faithful, even though all of us have leave and gone, indeed CF still remain and remian strong... God is indeed faithful and will not let it go...

reminded of God's love for me , indeed even though many thing i have done wrong and have not do rightly, yet he is always so faithful, always waiting for us to return. always waiting, never look down on us. never despise me, never ever a second abandon me...

Thanks God for your love to me. Thanks God for ur grace to me. Thanks God for ur friendship to me..... =o)

back!

2006-10-27T14:35:00.000+08:00

First Experience(s)

back from shopping in gk and from my holi!

ha first time went to bangkok.
me first time, goodness first time can walk till my heel pain.
somemore is walking slipper not heels...

me, missy and eric reach BK on fri nite ard 12 plus then check in ard 1 plus.
then dive into our sleep.

and next day, after having our big feast of international breakfast, we head to chatukut to see the world of things..

but really, it is more organised then i thought.

too much imagination..
thought that it will be like a rows of pple walking by the street with their good and product in a big strip white/blue plastic bag..

ha...

we walk abt 3 hr there..
didn't buy a lot cos nothing to buy..

then we took a cab to world trade centre.
there we found the long lost donuts! Douki Donuts!

so nice! and plus ice coffee abt less than $4.. ha so nice - aircon and seat...

then we went BMK to walk walk...

and then eat international food there which after we went back to our hotel to rest and nite time...

SUan Luam market.. more thing to see.
think it is better than chatukut i think..

mayb cos i bough somethings there.
ha

than we walk till abt 1am plus and back we go.
ha so tired till i just dive into sleep without change of clothes =oP

next morning we go to BMK again and walk ard then after go to eat sweason and then walk ard at i think BMK?

till eat dinner @ MK...

Hmm.. did i miss out somewhere?
how come i cannot remember now...

but then again at nite we tried to go to platinum which my excolleague recommended.
but it is closed then we went to the plantumu nite market which suppose to open at 11pm till 4am.
but we were there at 10pm.
still walk a while and back to hotel to eat cup noodle..

haha then sleep.

then next day, our last day, we went massage.
my second time, but then very pain pain...
and tickish...
haha

then we finally go to plantium and shop. lot of thing!

It is a must must place to go.
wholesale.
cheaper than chatukut i think!
esp when my bargain skill is not as polished as many pple...

haha then finally eat my famous well heard mango sticky rice!
we even bough 2 box to airport and eat...

haha
then back with lot of food and didn't buy a lot of thing.

a very interesting and tiring trip...

and my another first time!
haha my first driving lesson.
haha first time really drive.
so scaring!

after the lesson, left leg very suan.

haa must change leg, change gear, look far and see side.
everything at one time.
o meh!

i must master it!

Ha Zhen second atempt pass le.
congrate!

coming mon second lesson. hopefully i still remember!
Jia You!

meeting up

2006-10-19T21:00:00.000+08:00

meeting up..

recently meet up with 2 of my JC friends..

Hmm.. it's been so fast.
8 yrs that i knew Bailing already...

however, it seem that along the way, we just lost touch and life just go on as we grow up..
but it have been a very nice ctaching up..

although some moment there were some silent, but guess it is natural..
It's nice to see ur friend's and how their life been after a long while

then a day after, i met up with Evelyn.
it have been a diff feel with her.
the last time we meet was when we went to watch X men

haha me wanna to watch DeathNote.. now reading its manga.. very nice!

well, when i back and when still got the show, let's watch!

we tried to meet up more often this yr...

God, it seem that these days i meet meeting up with so many of my old friends of the past.

next week after my trip, i will be meeting up with my sec friends also..

well, guess that is the benefit of a single... and a blessing to have friends with me

have dinner with phangyew that day...
life after marriage for her is very diff from life before marriage

and we talk abt being single and also being marriage...
hmm, well, sometime seeing pple ard me getting attached and marry , sometime do wish to have one too...
guess that nautral esp when getting older already..

but well, guess thing just cannot be rushed. God will give me the best one... =o)

haha can't wait to be tomorrow.
tomorrow will be going for bangkok le!
haha

SHopping! and eating
soon i will be fat. nope. that's wrong cos i'm fat already... is fatter!

sigh put on weight recently again..
o meh!
wat to do?

widom

2006-10-14T21:16:00.000+08:00

wisdom

God show me and guide me.
wanna to know wher to go...
wanna to know wat to do..
wanna to know how to go abt it.

need ur guiding hands
need to seek ur wisdom...
need ur help. father..

retreat2

2006-10-05T00:18:00.000+08:00

retreat 2..

this yr, the retreat was short and sweet.
next yr there is lot of thing to look forward to.
so exciting!

well, the retreat end with the leader going for a feast at sakara with lot of seafood and FOOD!
and after al of us play so much and laugh so wildly.
it's been such a long time we leaders so crazy...

ha think the youths also not as crazy as some of us.... haha
Eric is the ulitmately
lot of actors in our leadership meh!
well, have lot of fun and lot of serious time too.

it was a different retreat i guess...

retreat..

2006-10-04T22:05:00.000+08:00

ReTrEat...

it is another yr of service . another service of planning and reflection.
so fast meh.
another yr past.
Karen ask me during the restreat:
"violet, how long we in service already?"

hmm together with the little fam lor"
now that they graduated, that is abt coming to 6 yrs...
hmm so fast.
looking back.
wat impact have i make?

as look back, the significant moment as i serve.
initally it was becos ywav was a place that i can serve God in.
but i guess it was the pt tat when i was reading a biography for my meet trip, i find another reason or i see the light?

hmm..
the book or the author actually say.
sometime God do not call you by name or directly say: this is your minstry . i called u by name to be here.
but when you see the fruit of your labour growing and you see yourself growing, you know , that is your minstry...

guess it really answer me that is this my minstry...
well, this should be till God really show me another way..

every yr of service and every yr of planning and reflection, reminded me ther so much thing to be done.
so much thing that i yet to do.
and have i done in according to wat God wants or according to wat i think is good only?

it is a constant struggle i guess...

well, 2 grp i been with already...

looking back. i sometime am amazing how God just not look at me of who i am but who he think i am.

if not for him, guess i will not be who i am today...
thank you God for looking and loving me as ur precious child.
thank you father for loving me so much and so deeply..
thank you lord for not giving up on me even when i have failed.

CF

2006-09-21T19:08:00.000+08:00

CF

sigh..
having post cf camp visitation blue...

well, time flies so fast.
these 2 days went to visit the CF camp.
o meh, grad 4 yrs already...

all the freshies now i don't know them
but seeing them and the staffworkers
really make me miss my days in CF

time during meeeting
late nite with my exco,
my cfers.
and our prayer meeting
and meeting with staffworker
and the time we sit in cf room having worship

heard cf room have shifted
heard that our minstry have combined...
but yet all these bring back fond memories of the time we have in CF.

God, i thank you for the time i have and the friends i have and the experience u have given me...

rainbow

2006-05-01T10:31:00.000+08:00

rainbow...

me also love rainbow...
it alwasy always remind me of our Father's promise to noah...
a promise that God say never again will He flood the nation again with flood.
a promise that he even show noah a signifiance sign tat till now, we are still able to see the rainbow which God have shown noah...

when walking to church with my excolleague after dinner together...
i saw a rainbow again...
took this with my Hp..

God always know how to cheer people up.
when i saw this rainbow, i was so amazed by his creation and formation of the rainbow...
and the signifiance behind it.
ha told my friend abt the story behind the rainbow, the story of noah and how it is so evidence that the flood did happen and the existence of God.

to me, it hold a special touch to see a rainbow and the promise God make...
it remind me that God still care and still love and know me ...

My house...

2006-04-09T16:57:00.000+08:00

My House...

Test taken from pam's blog...

http://drawahouse.com/houses/show.asp?houseID=317232&houseHash=1c0f44e8a537550ea2c25225e3e46cf0.

Based on the drawing and the 10 answers they gave this is a summary of their personality:
Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. Your life is always full of changes.

You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You have a strong personality and you like to command, influence and control people.

You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

i don't know

2006-04-09T16:49:00.000+08:00

i don't know

God i really don't know.
will i be able to trust you to bring me thru this period of time.
Will i have the patience
Am i going to the rite direction?

God i pray that if i am walking wrong direction, God be mericful to be even if i need to faced the consequence.
I want to obey you...
God may i choose the better way from the good way,,,
You know my desire.
God may my desire be truely according to your way...

Just getting tired...
Yeah..
emotionally tired...
But yet i choose to cling on to your promises for me.
I know u will give me the best.
I know tat i cannot see what is ahead.
But God, help me meanwhile just cling tightly to you...

i need ur assurance God...
PLease show me clearly.... i pray....

Sometime how i wish someone will just help me make decision,
someone help me thru.
but God i know, u are using this time to make to come to you closer.
to truly just depend on you...

Cos only u know and can work ways i cannot see....
i need to trust u.
yes, i need to trust you,...

Blessing

2006-03-25T22:25:00.000+08:00

Blessing..

Have a rather tough and depressing week ..
soemtime happened in my work place.

but i really thank God for so many friend and my dear sister who i know love me so much...

yes, it have been really very trying these days...
but i have come out with a decision...

But really need God's wisdom and me being active to know where to go now...

but thru these time, i realise tat there are so many people who care for me so much...

pple like my youth leader, my pri sch mates, my dear loved sister, my dear youths, my poly friends, my parents and of course my dear Father where i know He is surely with me thru out...

it will be hard, but then looking now, i know tat i will surely grow to be a better person and another turing pt in my life....

thanks Father,,,

2006-02-07T23:07:00.000+08:00

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.

They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.

It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.

They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

2006-02-07T23:05:00.000+08:00

You Are Apple Pie

You're the perfect combo of comforting and traditional
Those who like you crave security

What Kind of Pie Are You?

is there more to this life

2006-01-19T22:58:00.000+08:00

Is There More To This Life?

is there more to this life?
well, i guess so.
sometime me feel so tired and drained.
not so physically but rather have u feel sometime empty ?

well, it's so hard to image to have to live so long without God.
guess for us Christian, with God, we have someone to rely on.
but then sometime just feel so tired and so empty

sometime just feel so empty by the comments and the thought running in mind.
in work esp.
just felt so tired
just wish that time just flies faster
but then when will the time comes

yet thinking back.
guess it is in time of struggles, God seem so real and so close.
Though i know tat it will still be a long way to go.
but at least i guess, God's promises is so reassurring.
so comforting..

wat can i do?
guess it just nothing but
to think
well, it is a learning process all will go thru.
guess this mark another stage of my life.
that God is molding me again...
it is really a struggle i guess.

Yet thru it, pray tat i will not be a complainsome person.
i wish not...
but then , all will go thru life trial and struggles.
but i wonder, how long can i still go .
how far will i be refine?

how much can i be like ?
i don't know.

when i know, guess it will be another mile stone God have implant in my life again... =o)

More to this life

2006-01-19T22:53:00.000+08:00

More to this Life

Today I watched in silence as people passed me by,
And I strained to see if there was something hidden in their eyes;
But they all looked at me as if to say
Life just goes on.

The old familiar story told in different ways,
Make the most of your own journey from the cradle to the grave;
Dream your dreams tomorrow because today
Life must go on.

CHORUS
But theres more to this life than living and dying,
More than just trying to make it through the day;
More to this life, more than these eyes alone can see,
And theres more than this life alone can be.

Tonight he lies in silence staring into space,
And looks for ways to make tomorrow better than today,
But in the morning light it looks the same;
Life just goes on.

He takes care of his family, he takes care of his work,
And every Sunday morning he takes his place at the church;
And somehow he still feels a need to search,
But life just goes on.

(chorus)

So where do we start to find every part
Of what makes this life complete;
If we turn our eyes to Jesus well find
Lifes true beginning is there at the cross where He died.
He died to bring us . . .
(chorus)

Gonna Write Myself a Letter …

2006-01-13T17:58:00.000+08:00

Gonna Write Myself a Letter …
http://www.christianitytoday.com/teens/newsletter/2006/bym60106.html

By LaTonya Taylor
January 06, 2006

A couple of weeks ago, I read about a new e-mail service that allows you to send yourself an e-mail that will be delivered in the future. If you want, you can use www.FutureMe.org to e-mail the person you'll be, say, three months, three years or even 30 years from now.

If you're like me, you can probably relate to a service like this. It would be a great way to check and see if you've met some goals or plans you've set for yourself. Maybe, for instance, you're trying to spend more time with God, to work out more often, or to be more faithful to your church or youth group.

As I thought about my own goals for this new year, I decided to write a letter to myself. I'm going to have it delivered in June. I'd like to share it with you now:

Dear Future Me,

Well, it's six months into 2006, and I hope you're making the most of it.

At the beginning of this year, instead of setting a whole bunch of unattainable goals, you did a good job of having realistic goals and taking steps toward planning for them. I hope you're still working on those good things, and that you've made some progress. If you haven't, or if you're not as far long as you wanted to be, I hope you're not beating yourself up about it. Just think about where you've succeeded, where you're falling short, and what you need to do to get or stay on track.

You said you wanted to learn more about loving the people around you. I hope you are doing that, and not just thinking about doing it. You believe serving people is important. So I hope you're continuing to find ways to serve people. You talk about forgiveness and reconciliation and peace, and I hope you've taken steps toward living those things.

My hope is that you can see yourself growing in fellowship with other Christ-followers and that you're reaching out to people who don't know him. I also hope you're growing closer to God, and that you can see the fruits of the Spirit—love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control—in your life. Those are good signs of God's work in your heart.

Finally, I hope you're thinking more about grace. You can be really hard on yourself, and that's not always a good thing. Learn to ease up on yourself when you need to. Learn to forgive yourself when you make mistakes. Remembering that God showers you with grace will help you to extend grace to yourself and others.

In any case, I hope you'll take a few moments to sit down and think about these things. Maybe you can also pray for God's guidance about the next six months of the year. No matter what, you can believe that he cares about you, and that he's happy to help you grow in faith and life.

Sincerely,

Past Me

Summary

2006-01-10T11:03:00.000+08:00

Summary

it's been long since my last entry
how come didn't write
os me getting more and more lazy... ha. wat happen tese two mth camp, wedding, operation, graduation, new pastor, break.

yes, starting from wedding. YEAH!! two of my youth leaders are married. and left only our dear tim sim not yet!

its is a interesting journey to look back at how the two copule start their relationship and how now they are united as a copule a already. God really work at a special way tat is beyond wat we imaged!

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Yes, the camp is over le. this yr, am in the logistic helping out. well, it's been two yr didn't really in the grp playing on one hand me get to do diff thing, on another hand, have miss out some time with the youth together doing thing...

well, overall is was good. the publicity and decor is the most busy one. our dear wen and serene have been very stress meh. so is eric and the programme team, josh, eunice and karen...

the concert is super i say. the youths are are so full of talent and potential. i believe tat the parents who are there must have felt the same too. imaged! they are going to be the future leaders... haha thinking too far already..
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after so long in YWav - 8 yrs in ywav.
our very 3rd batch of graduate are born.
they are the little family,,,

time flies fast!
to think tat it time for them to move on.
still remember the time i was with them.
our april fool joke was such a lovely experience.

yes, all of them have grow up already.
they are so much serving in church and so ready to be service for God.
i guess the most rewarding thing being serving in youth minstry is to see ur fruits been watered and bloom in time they are ripe...

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yes, we have our new pastor eric coming aboard wef 1st jan.
pgh moving on.
now the new nick we have for him is pek...
haha

well, with the new plan in ywav, we will be facing more challenges.
frankly speaking , am a bit like don't know wat to do.
but then i guess it is in time of uncertainity, God work is most real in our life and He is most felt...

Yes, tat will surely be time i will be helpless but yes, of course i remember He is with me.
so far, He have been journing with me for such a long time.
so faithful and remarkable i will say.

Reflective mood

2006-01-10T10:28:00.000+08:00

Reflective mood

haha..
me always am in reflective whenever come to writing ..

haha.
a bit emotional gal i suppose...

heee.

yes.
looking back.
it is so hard not to say thanks for the thing my dear God have been in my life.
no doubt i am no perfect or even spiritally.
and at least i still will neglect him and be distracted.
but He have been so faithfil and very very good i say.
though may forget him at time, may not even want to do wat is right cos it is so hard,
and might even get lazy and get tired.
but he is still there.
his presense so hard not to notice i say.

Yes. it is my 11st bday in church already.
so fast.
so amazing i say wat God have done.
if not for him, wat i will become? i don't know
mayb a person very proud and very shy.
proud of acedmic and greedy and selfish cos of money?
mayb...

and looking back.
so long in youth minstry as a youth and as a leader.
it is so emotional to always see a group of youth growing up and graduating..
to think back my gradation.
there is only now left a few of us in church....
sometime, wat most important is not how well, we started, how well we behave in church or even our attendance in church, wat is most impt is yes, how are we ending?
the journey is so far and so beyond we can see.
but i guess if we slowly walk and take trust, i will like now as i looked back , be so full of praise too?

yes.
not to mention.
haha as i add in all the pict in my pict.
i still am very encouraged.
yes the youths have grown up so much so much
me wanna to find some sec 1 pict of the excon, but realised.
o meh how come we didn't take at all?
all is sec 2 and above.
so sad.
don't have the cute pict of the cute youths,
haha

but neverthe less.
here the display of our very excon pict!
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continued..

2006-01-10T01:27:00.000+08:00

continued..

hasn't all of them grow more handsome and prettier? =o)

Jasmina Dancing

2005-11-10T20:54:00.000+08:00

Jasmina Dancing

http://www.youtube.com/?v=Kk_BNM-3184

Guess who it is?

2005-11-10T20:40:00.000+08:00

Guess who it is?

http://www.youtube.com/?v=bNQCPdMkLvk

2005-11-10T20:14:00.000+08:00

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

2005-11-10T20:11:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: March 15

You take life as it is, and you find happiness in a variety of things.
You tend to be close to family and friends. But it's hard to get into your inner circle.
Making the little things wonderful is important to you, and you probably have an inviting home.
You seek harmony with others, but occasionally you have a very stubborn streak.

Your strength: Your intense optimism

Your weakness: You shy away from exploring your talents

Your power color: Jade

Your power symbol: Flower

Your power month: June

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Alpha on Fri

2005-10-23T21:38:00.000+08:00

the topic of the day- Why should we share to others.
main point:

cos out of Love for God
we can't help but to share cos we are being blessed
it is a commandant God called us.

well, tat day, what really touch me is not the teaching and the sharing.
but rather you could really sense tat God is really working in the heart of these non christian.
such amazing question they ask...
like so you mean that if those who never sin before because they didn't not believe Jesus so they have to die?

so you mean if a murderer repent and receiev Christ at the point before he die he get to heaven while another goodie man never does any wrong have to go to hell?
Why is God so unfair?

so what happen to those who never heard of God before? do they go to hell too?

what if a monk is very devoted to buddhism, is he also going to hell? but he so much faith?

so you say God have predestinate those who will chose to believe in Him and those who will reject Him, so why should we even need to share meh?

well, such amazing question asked by non christian. i can't help but to know. Yes. God is doing something in their midst and heart....

well, it really make me realise the important of knowing how to answer all these question. all these answer is a stepping stones tat we can share with them..

people nowsaday are so intenllant.. if we could answer all their doubt as much as possible, they will be convicted of what we believe in is not just based on only cos i believe but also based on facts as well.

Yup.
as the bible say to be prepare in season and out of season....

well, it is a sad thing the speaker say. our message on one hand is a offensive message cos it will condemn other tat they will go to hell if they do not believe in Christ, while on another it bring Hope.

Cos Christ bring eternal life to those who chose to believe in Him.

all it take is faith in Jesus. Yet there are many reason and problem we can not accept Him.

Ya. thinking back i was once also resisted to Him. Yet like the speaker say, sometime it is a matter of timing . mayb to some it is a thime to just sowing seed, some watering and some harvesting, but it is the Holy Spirit tat convicted one to be ready.

I'm so glad tat God chose me to be His treasured and chose child... =o)

pict

2005-10-06T23:53:00.000+08:00

prayer of the excon and excon family

the YLC family and mass YWAV Family

appreciation day

2005-09-26T20:31:00.000+08:00

well, just pass the appreciation day.
so fast.
my goodness.
it's been 3 yrs since i started with tis grp of guys...

ya.
just thinking back.
during the first yr with phuifun and louis... most of them were not v regular...
but now with phuifun and sam, the guys really grow up so tall and so pretty..

ha age catching up meh.
so fast it's been 3 yrs with them.
have been v blessed to have a grp of fun and interesting youths..
although sometime do have time where i am mad and helpless with them, but God have been still v good to me...

seeing them grow and serve and prayfully be a example for the younger youths have been such a rewarding result God have blessed me with.
pray that they wll continue to grow closer and deeper in Christ and for those not regular, they will be able to settle down...

Gift From Excon!!

first week

2005-09-19T20:57:00.000+08:00

yes..
tis is my 2nd week of work le
well, within my first week, i have heard 2 of my colleague saying leaving the company in another few mths or few yrs..

haha it seems tat everywhere i go sometime pple leave...

well, am more free now. comparing to cgh, the patient load there is vvvvv low.
ya, speed of work like really slow....

but then i am expected to give public talk and speech on eye next time. pray tat i will have the courage and boldness...

but haha was very amaze in fact tat wow the sky is still bright when reach home after work.
image last time the sky is so dark after my work but now like wow so bright....
hhaah

last few days

2005-09-08T15:11:00.000+08:00

today hmm my last few day holi...
back from phuket.
had a relaxing time..
haha played a lot with jasmin....
she have grown so cute...
so sweet cannot stand.... haha

well, first stay a while in hotel and also touring ard.
dinner tomyam soup for most day...

then 2nd day, went to the bench.
ha initally though of trying the water skii but then haha after being thrown into the water two time by sam, so scaring,
give up.
haha wonder next time mayb i cannot might not dare to try unless unless that person is v pro meh... hahha

then was sunburnt o meh. now am peeling le.
well, went for coffee, for hotels, for seaview.
so beautiful..
even the sunset and the cloud....

well, tried the kfc and also the pizza there. so diff from here.
well, should try other thing next time..
but wonder when is the next time ?
went go karting also.. first time drive fast speed initally scared will meet accident or bump into something anot after a while.
so fun..

well, but time flies fast..
so fast me going to start work soon.
a bit scared actually don't know wat will happen.
scared tat i will not be able to perform up to standard...
God pls take away tis fear and give me confidence..

yesterday excon did our last bs and farewell for sam.
order 4 14" pizza and 16 kfc...
first time see there are food left meh..
well, abt 12 of us eating..
by the time, everyone a bit sleepy...
we start bs. end ard 4 plus
well, went one round of prayer and then after

watch wat called my bf is type b...
and ha they started teasing lejon cos he is type b...
then left ard 6 plus. after eat dinner go dinner.
yup. end of the day.
now a waiting for time to pass cos meeting eve later.
yup. tat all..

sorry

2005-08-29T00:01:00.000+08:00

sorry my friend
i cannot be with you rite now

so far away.
12 hr different
yet u are suffering
nothing i can do
dont know wat to say
my friend

so many yrs together
since we know one another in pr 3
our 15 yrs knowing one another
yet at tis time, when u are farthest away
nothing tat i can do
just pray tat i can be a listening ear to you

sorry tat i cannot do anything for u
sorry tat i cannot advise you cos i am inexperience
sorry tat i am lost
sorry my dear gal...

alpha day 1

2005-08-26T23:06:00.000+08:00

reaching at mrt at 7.
saw a few new faces.
went to introduce myself...

amazingly a few are abt the same age range like me in mid 20s.
and then eat dinner ..
chat with uncle william colleague - wendy
and also auntie christine's colleague - pingling
today topic - is there a God?
conclusion - There is a God - it take a greater faith for someone to believe in there is no God than someone to believe there is a God. as there are so many creation in the world to show us that God really exist...

the people are really interested in seeking God you can see..

wat i really learn out of today lesson....
you can seeking God for a long time and wish to connect with Him, but it take the word " surrender" to really know personally who God is...

many of them mention tat they have been seeking for a long time.
one of them came cos he want to know how to connect to God. he have been a buddhist all his life but it didn't give him the connection and also the peace he seek for. so he hope tat this course will give him the answ

in here, you really experience wat my excon is teaching now. did all path lead to the same ulitmate way?

people are really confused and wanna to really believe tat there is an existation of God. but yet they struggled to believe with their heart.

Yes. we need to believe not only with our head knowleadge but to truely believe with or heart surrender to Jesus Christ....

Yes Father. it is a reminder to me.
to believe in ur with my mind, heart , will and soul...

so long

2005-08-20T22:34:00.000+08:00

hee recently didn't update blog.
yup today is coming to the full last week for my week le

as i was packing my office, was trying to pack and clear any folder and doc in the pc.
well, diff pple got diff reaction to my leaving

some pple just keep asking where i am going
why i'm going?
so how much was i pay?
higher than here rite?
by how much?

something just feel tat such pple are really a bit san ba?
ask cos they want to spread ard

another grp, so you going ? huh
so have u unblock ur leave le?
you leaving? so should i spread ard so tat can have pple to apply for the job.
but then for wat? cos the newspaper already got publish the application for the job
okay . since is ur decision, see ya if got another chance

finally another grp.
i suppose tis is the grp which i have relationship build over the 2 yrs.
so sad and a waste tat you going they say
the hr though tat empolying another optom is very easily, see now, ha they have to pay another addition abt 50% more to get another optom
they got easily just spent 10-20% to make u spend but their plan went wrong
now instead of helping the company save money, they have to pay even more and to waste time to retrain another new optom

yup.
the above is the following comment of so...

suddenly on fri, as i tried to pack my cupboard, a sense of losses overwhelm me...
a bit sad though.
but i guess cos i been there for 2 yr le and it is also my first job which i work the longest...
but at least i know from the feeling tat i not quiting cos to escape from the problem there
but then it time to move on and God have open the door for me le

hmm.
lot of though running in mind.
a bit disfocused now actually
well, wat is in my mind meh?
me also don't know...
confused and blur rite
yup..

What's Your Hidden Talent?

2005-08-06T11:26:00.000+08:00

Your Hidden Talent

You have the natural talent of rocking the boat, thwarting the system.
And while this may not seem big, it can be.
It's people like you who serve as the catalysts to major cultural changes.
You're just a bit behind the scenes, so no one really notices.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

How Do People See You?

2005-08-06T11:24:00.000+08:00

Slow and Steady

How Do People See You?

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

2005-08-06T11:14:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: March 15

With a birthday on the 15th of any month, you are apt to have really strong attachments to home, family and domestic scene.

The 1 and 5 equaling 6, provide the sort of energy that makes you an excellent parent or teacher.

You are very responsible and capable.

This is an attractive and an attracting influence.

You like harmony in your environment and strive to maintain it.

You tend to learn by observation rather than study and research.

You may like to cook, but you probably don't follow recipes.

This number shows artistic leanings and would certainly support an talents that may be otherwise in your makeup.

You're a very generous and giving person, but perhaps a bit stubborn in ways.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

full

2005-08-04T22:20:00.001+08:00

am so full
o meh
eat too much le...
yesterday went buffeting at sakura @ downtown east.

wow the food is so so nice.
me eat think abt 5-6 oysters, lot of eel, sashimi, ebi fry, sushis, and lot lot others!
hee eat till overeat

but then me eat lesser than last time le.
Sob sob no worth it!
is abt $24 per person
but eat till like 4-5 round too full le,,,
o meh!

full until cannot eat my fav terki chicken! =(
well, went to eat with colleague cos last day for her.
she moving on to accountancy world from nurse.
ha so diff

as for me my last day is 31 aug.
so will be free from 1st to 11 sept.
and now hee am still d/ling my prince of tennis amination...
so impatient can't wait to d/l finish all the 170 plus epsiode.
but then it took me like more than a week to even d/l 5 epsiode
when will the day comes?

MIssion Sunday

2005-08-02T21:13:00.000+08:00

Our mission sunday!
well, our game stall and deciation stall
been thank God for the children if not our game stall will not be able to raise money.

our dear sam is so curious on chari's sarong tat he decided to fit himself on one. see how happy he is with the sarong..

our dear bell keep eating and eating the icecream tat we have to stop her from eating her 5th one!

Resignation

2005-08-01T10:12:00.000+08:00

well, am in office now.
today is nurse day. everything like very relax like tat . but then today got a lot of patient on the list. wonder if the patients are late again.

image! now is already 10.15 amd me only see like only 4 patient so far. later sure die die le...

well, well, came to office tis morning, went to find my supervisor to hand in my letter.
she like didn't say anything at all. first word is "sorry i'm v busy. i have only like 1 min for u"
so sad rite. and she also didn't ask me y i'm leaving and not to say to retain me back.

and then later part of the morning, i hand in another letter to my dr in charge.
she was like so nice. she say tat although it is a bit sad tat me leaving but then it is better for me in turn of prospect. cos the hr here a bit srewed up...

though as a boss hope tat i can stay but then as a friend she say me leave better.
haa me feeling so like better....
ya.
Really thanks God for the thing have been going v smoothly.
well, was thinking and praying wat to say when on train. which usually i will sleep on train.
but cannot sleep.
mind too active.
even yesterday nite also
was tossing and turning think till abt 2 plus.
now a bit tired though but have to still work.
yup
tat all for tday.=)

test from anyi one but can't remember wat site

2005-07-31T23:24:00.000+08:00

You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfillment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realize the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back... so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens.

You enjoy taking part in anything that may constitute fun and excitement. You need to be stimulated and need to feel that 'Life is worth living' and you are awaiting that stimulation and you don't particularly care where it comes from!

There are times of everyone's life when 'compromise' is the name of the game and this is the time, so you have no alternative but to forgo some pleasures for the time being. You are capable of achieving satisfaction through physical activity.

Your ability to withstand the pressures of everyday life have been overtaxed and this is leading to stress and frustrations. It would seem that for the time being you have lost the resilience and strength of will necessary to contend with existing difficulties. You feel that it is all 'too much' and, try as you may, you are getting nowhere. But to give you credit, you continue to stand your ground and pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity. Naturally this situation is subjecting you to intolerable stress and pressure from which you would dearly like to escape, but you can not bring yourself to make the necessary decision. As a result you remain firmly involved in the problem and you can neither view it objectively nor get rid of it - you cannot leave it alone and you feel that you will only be at peace when you have reached your objective.

You have so many ideas that you would like to revitalize but you need to realize a stable and peaceful condition to do so. Once you can free yourself from all the aggravation and tension around you, you will make strides that may amaze you. You will not be prevented from achieving all the things you so desire.

new!

2005-07-29T00:13:00.001+08:00

finally finishing doing the new one
ha since april meh
but then my chit chat boz something wrong
will fixed soon
hee... =o)

2005-03-01T23:42:00.000+08:00

God's promised dream come thru...